diary

06-23-24

burn thug angel onto a CD and wrap it in a beatiful paper, and send it to me in the mail. Kidnap me if you want to. going to going to going to, buy a new model kit to build even though I have a garage kit to paint, even though I just spent money on a new crank set and bottom bracket for my bike, even though I have homework, and a new book to read, and a map to make, and a research project to start and finish, and a bunch of japanese voabulary to brush up on, and a bunch of kanji, and laptops to fix, and clothes, and food, and music, and walls.

06-20-24

the stuff I like is simple: computer technology, all types of information, riding my bike from point A to point B, and helping people.

06-03-24

I read about integrated circuits and the basics of electrical engineering. I don't know why I keep doing this. I seriously feel like its something I should do but I don't really know why. I'm working at the curculation desk and the blood inside my body isn't moving. I want to ride my bike after work so I think I will take a really long way home. Ava just texted me a photo of a rabbit. A Seattle rabbit :,)

05-30-24

my life is destroyed by mosqitos

04-05-24

I'm calling you and i'm like want to do the worlde

04-04-24

Uhhhhh yeah uhhhhh. I've got to get a basket for my bike. I've given myself a haircut. progressing//but at what cost? Tired and napping, but at what cost. Thinking of summer reading, computer class, and moving on. Looking forward to all of that stuff. Can't seem to give a shit about fiction, but hopefully that's something I can overcome. Living in the Information Center, working at the Information Desk. Do you hate yourself every night? haha, yea. Certain times of day, some places, are off limits. Some of our favorite stuff is off limits.

02-15-24

Ant Invasion: Thank you to all that have made suggestions

no longer giving up cigarettes for lent. don't care. doesn't matter. no big deal. quite possibly giving up something else entirely. Many oganizational projects to be done. Sooooooo library pilled its not even funny. Doesn't matter if I don't learn to spell. I'm learning beautiful math. Collections management. Rat burial. Let's stick it in our arm. Creative freedom over the stems, super fun. Let's go ahead and add some more drums. Lenny is sick. And today is Eliza's birthday. Happy birthday eliza, you are my favorite baby. I write like an insane baby but I don't think anyone minds. Ant Invasion

02-11-24

:o my feels.... like im in my feels or something. Be brave and talk about ur feelings. loser!!! I feel like crumbs but I don't want to feel like crumbs anymore. It's superbowl sunday... I'm gonna get totally wasted...

02-01-24

I am in love with everything!!!
I love walking home from campus even when it is dark and rainy and even when my bag is too heavy. The back pain is no big deal because as soon as I get home I get to lay on top of my foam roller and relax every part of my spine. It’s a feeling of relief you wouldn’t believe. I’m still happy. 4 days is small but when I’m in San Francisco a lot of things happen to me in 4 days. When I’m in tacoma 3 weeks feels like 4 days. I cooked a crab. My new experience! I saw a Steelblue ladybird on the car. One of the more special bugs I've seen. On my walk home I thought about how I should send my friend an email and how she’s moving into her new house soon. After my walk I opened my laptop and there was a brand new email from her. it’s meant to be. I read the email twice and say this is the highlight of my week. I love you and good luck with your new house. I’m so happy when I get to email my friends.

01-27-24

I’m starting to get really happy. It all started when I really loved my bed. I was the happiest in the world when I was wrapped in my new green blanket. My back didn’t even hurt. I am so grateful for my room and my new life. I don’t know why but it feels like I’m living a new life. Cataloging Intern? Maybe, we’ll see. Good luck!

01-23-24

My dream is to be in love and I am not afraid to say it.

01-22-24

Watched Mothlight by Stan Brakhage. It was very pretty and it reminded me of the projector in elementary school. Then I watched T,O,U,C,H,I,N,G which was scary and reminded me of when I can't fall asleep at night and I grind my teeth on purpose, even though I know it's bad for me

01-13-24

Today I picked up a cigarette off the ground and I smoked it. Feels good to be like fifteen again. I'm a goddamn lowlife. Don't look at me and Don't go on my website

01-11-24

when I sang tropical depression at the world famous java jive I had so much fun. Then I got micha to sing blink-182 with me. Bob's is the fucking place to be and I hope to go back before I leave. Went to new orleans, played with computers and had fun. ate shrimp and scallops and had fun.

01-06-24



01-05-24

Oh how beautiful. So pretty small skinny. Fried okra, pickled okra, raw oyster. I think this mix is crazy. Club casualties part is crazy.

01-02-24

On my birthday I made this song. It was a blast. Not sure what to do with it tho. Thank you to everyone for wishing me a happy birthday and making me shrimp dinner. delicious. I love you twotwousend twenty three. I have hope for the future.


12-30-23

This is going to be my diary. Awesome. I am giving up on good sleep. It's too hard to take care of myself perfectly but I'm not doing a bad job at it either. My health It's mediocre I guess. Havn't done a project in a while and I'm sure I'll feel better once I do. I saw a garage kit at the antique store that I might buy myself for my birthday. I'm going to make a -mixed media- pictuire of my friend using the darkroom and some wiretape. yay. If it turns out nice it will be her album cover. yay.

I also want to record a full piano version of the swan song, but today I felt really sick so it was hard to like sit at the piano for a while. I listened to Digital Gaia a bunch today among other secret webcam girl stuff. I think that album is so crazy good. It's so crazy good and I will never believe it. I'm really looking forward to lucys new album 100% prod by i.v. I'm thinking it's going to be really really good. My lucy friends are excited.

I kind of want to attened the Simone Weil colloquy in April. It's in Quebec so I would have to make a huge trip of it. I'm imagining it to be like a film festival but for essays about Weil. kind of cool. and one of the topics of this year's is about the year that she worked in a car factory and they are going to say 'Was her stint as a factory worker an offensive coopting of working-class experience, or the condition of possibility for a subtle and engaged theory?' and to be honest I would like to hear the discussion on this. Plus I don't know anything about Quebec. It's like the east coast side of Canada and they speak more French there and like maybe I would get to wear a really big coat or something. Not sure but it might be cool to find out. Maybe one day I will find out. I most likely will not attened the 2024 Simone Weil colloquy.